Walking up a flight of beige stairs, my heart beat in triple time with every step, I could feel nausea settling deep into my stomach. I can turn back now and just pretend like I never contacted them, I thought as I stepped closer and closer to the waiting room. I wanted so badly to turn around and go back to the library, hide behind my university work, and push down the anxiety and depression. But, before I knew it, I was knocking on the door of the receptionist, and announcing myself: "Hi, I'm Adrienne. I've got an appointment at 2pm." This is my experience of counselling at university.
"You know, I'm still standing, better than I ever did," were song lyrics sang in the 1983 Elton John hit I'm Still Standing. In my first blog post for There's Methods in Mental Health, I speak about dealing with the factor of self-hatred remaining in your life well after you have recovered.