Disclaimer: This post discusses eating disorders, anxiety, body image/distortion/dysmorphia, and other mental health illness and difficulties. My eating disorder promised me a lot. My eating disorder crept into my mind and my body, when I was trying to find some way to cope with a dysfunctional environment and trauma imposed upon my life, and planted … Continue reading The Promises and The Reality
In late March of this year, the Scottish Government released a report that reviewed the current state of eating disorder services available in Scotland. This review was announced in 2020 by Clare Haughey, Minister for Mental Health, following the eating disorder review carried out by the Mental Welfare Commission for Scotland. This review was published … Continue reading Scottish Government Eating Disorder Review: A Summary and My Thoughts
Outside of my blog, I have been a featured writer/contributor for some organisations involved in mental health, and overall health and social care. One of which is the Humans of Scotland series for Alliance Scotland. After writing an opinion piece on Pro-Ana content for Alliance, I was contacted to be part of this series to … Continue reading Being a Human of Scotland #ALLIANCEConf20
After eight hours of driving through the night, driving through two borders, then a quick meal with a new athletics coach, unpacking the majority of my entire life into a small accommodation halls room, and saying a teary and very anxious goodbye to my parents as they set off for another eight hour car journey … Continue reading A Debrief of a Masters: MSc Abnormal and Clinical Psychology
I recently read Seconds To Snap by Scottish author, Tina McGuff, and it elicited so many strong emotions with every word that I realised this was one of the best books to read to understand the shame, and guilt concerning eating disorders. Seconds To Snap takes you through the dark details of an eating disorder so often missed in popular culture, and is an important lesson in eating disorder awareness.
A few months ago, the first case of COVID-19 (or as it's more colloquially known: coronavirus) was discovered, and since then, it has spread like wildfire. So far, nearly 250,000 cases have been reported with just over 10,000 of those cases resulting in death. Fortunately, there are more survivors of the illness than deaths, but, … Continue reading Stockpiling, Sickness, and Safe foods: Eating Disorders in a Pandemic
You support the family. You support the friends. You support the colleagues. You support everyone. If you do this, you support the person with the eating disorder.
Walking up a flight of beige stairs, my heart beat in triple time with every step, I could feel nausea settling deep into my stomach. I can turn back now and just pretend like I never contacted them, I thought as I stepped closer and closer to the waiting room. I wanted so badly to turn around and go back to the library, hide behind my university work, and push down the anxiety and depression. But, before I knew it, I was knocking on the door of the receptionist, and announcing myself: "Hi, I'm Adrienne. I've got an appointment at 2pm." This is my experience of counselling at university.
When I was unwell, I was heavily addicted to Pro-Ana and Pro-Mia sites; a method of keeping me stuck in the cycle of disordered eating. This is my experience.
An eating disorder is a powerful thing. It can ruin many years of your life. It can take away your joy to eat. It can damage your body nearly beyond repair. It can leave lasting physical problems. It embeds itself in your mind like a parasite. It is consuming. It is enduring. And, it can rob you entirely of your identity.